Hello
Paige,
I have
written this letter to say goodbye and to say I am sorry. I'm sorry
that I care for you more than you were hoping, that I read into our
friendship as more than it was. I miss the you that was friend's
with me, but I can't keep hoping things will return to the way they
were. All I ever wanted was to be happy, and for a moment you made me
happy. I care for you deeply and I miss my friend. The joy I felt
when you agreed to go out with me, even if it was never meant to be,
was intangible to me.
I wish
I had realized when I started comparing you to my relationship with
Haleigh that I had gone to far. I knew the signs, I could see that
you didn't care for me the way I wanted you to.
You
should know, though you may figure it out before I give this to you,
I may never be able to forgive Matt. I wish Matt had told you that I
thought of you as more than a friend, or that when he talked to me on
Tuesday he had told me how you felt. Instead he gave me the false
hope that I had a chance with you. That while you were attracted to
him, you still felt even the hint of romance with me; instead he left
my home and went to yours. I can't forgive him.
You
know when we went to Shooters' I had left my wallet at work, he saw
me that day and saw the joy on my face. For the first time in years
he had seen it and he didn't even wait. He figured he wanted it
instead, he never cared at all.
Do not
blame yourself, as Matt told me, he will give up on all friendships
to have a chance at a future with a girl he didn't care for until a
friend went out with her. The closeness that I felt with him is
gone, we're just distant friends. My hope for you two is that you'll
heal his darkened heart and you'll be happy together, I fear that he
is still the same guy from the past few years. Who will use you for
all that your worth and then break you. I wish I could tell you the
person that you are going out with, but your into him, I know you
won't listen to me.
I am
sorry that I won't be able to protect from what's to come next. I
can only hope that you'll make your own decisions about him, that
you'll see him for what so many others have.
Your
friend and a guy who can't help caring for you,
Nathan
Michael Damm
